Thinking With the Heart!

FACT: Ancient Egyptians believed the heart was the center of intelligence and emotion. They also thought so little of the brain that during mummification, they removed the brain entirely from bodies.

I’m back. What was a long awaited trip to Greece has officially ended. Thank God. I’M SO HAPPY TO BE HOME! Yikes, maybe I’m digging a hole way bigger than it seems. Fine, clear and simple, here it is. I had a great time, lots of traveling, too much partying, great gyros, and delicious cheese pies (tyropitas) - all accompanied with the ‘not-so-nicest-people’ in the world. My experience in Greece was more like an experience to the epitome of rudeness. Though the islands were beautiful and the traveling was fun, I never met more bitter and impatient people in my life. My motto was ‘Smile, it doesn’t hurt’. This trip was also a revelation of my own being, I suppose. A revelation I never thought I could admit to, but will do so with utter honesty. Ok, here it goes, I’m taking a deep breath…ah…I couldn’t live without my V and was dying to come home to him after only the first night!!!!! What is wrong with me?!? Why couldn’t I enjoy the loneness of my being as an independent woman?? This was supposed to be a nice time away from each other before we become ‘stuck’ together alone in Mexico for 2 years. So there you go. I have admitted to the truth. I may be a strong woman whose independent posture is what keeps me proud – but, I admit being without my V for 2 weeks was the next closest thing to anguish. The saying is evidently true 'You don’t know what you have till it’s gone!' I don’t understand – why does life have to work that way? Why are we such complex creatures? The day before I left, my beloved V was telling me how much he was looking forward to having time alone…upon my return; his words conveyed the complete opposite of what he THOUGHT he wanted. I am banned from traveling alone for that length of time from this day forward. Thank goodness…or I would’ve banned my self regardless. ‘I MARYANN - AM BANNED’ from TRAVELING alone for too long. That is our new rule. I feel a sense of great relief! I know what I have and I will never let it ‘go’. But I still didn’t answer my own question: why does that happen? It’s like having curly hair and wanting straight hair. Then when it’s finally straightened – you stop and realize maybe curly was better. You’re hearts desire is to have something a certain way…but your mind tells you otherwise. What are we supposed to listen to for guidance our hearts or our brains? Clearly, 'Ancient Egyptians' didn't put much 'thought' into the importance of the brain but imagine living life following only our hearts! How dangerous would that be? Overdosing on chocolate, falling in love with someone for the wrong reasons, and buying a $10,000 purse because you know in your 'heart' it would match perfectly to your $5000.00 shoes... Sorry Ancient Egypt, I think you have it all wrong...moral of the entry, we must not lose sight of what we have, rather, be happy and enjoy the things we are blessed with. This includes the ability to smile...