Where Is My North Star?

"You have to count on living every single day in a way you believe will make you feel good about your life -- so that if it were over tomorrow, you'd be content with yourself."
Jane Seymour

Time is running out. My life in Toronto is not going to be my life anymore. By the end of next month, I will be leaving it all behind. I’m starting to feel the surge of emotions on a daily basis. Life at work is not the same. I feel I am abandoning the team of ‘Angels’ I became so close with in such a short period of time. Who will I have my daily tête-à-tête’s with regarding happiness and self-awareness? These discussions have led me to learn a lot about our planet – Venus. I never realized how so many women are absorbed with Mars in a way that forces them to forget ‘what planet THEY THEMSELVES are from’. By doing so, they’re conforming to what Mars wants out of this universe. What is up with that? Why are women so quick to change what they need and feel to ensure their significant others are happy? One of my fellow ‘Angels’ is currently trying to discover where her ‘North Star’ is. She is determined to find the cause of her pain and figure out why she hasn’t found the happiness she ultimately deserves. We deserve to lead our lives in such a way that makes us happy “most of the time”. We can’t just settle in accordance to what others have in plan.
Life experiences lead us to be the people we are today. In my case, I feel I’ve been faced with a number of challenging situations that have created the person I am. The loss of my father's well-established business was not only devastating, but a complete downfall as a family. We went from having everything, to having nothing. At fifteen years old, I had to lend a shoulder for my father to cry on, and be strong for a man who once was stronger than I. It was tough, but I stood there and always made sure we were ok, even if we were not. Life from that point on has been anything but easy for my family. It’s hard to see a unit go through an overwhelming demise as such, but it made us a team. It made me value my family more than anything. It made me who I am today. Then came my grandfather's passing. One year ago this time was when I saw my ‘dédé’ take his last breath, while holding my hand. The sadness will never escape my heart and the vision will never leave my mind. Through these and other various experiences, I have managed to turn the tough times into life lessons while reveling in my own beautiful life. The best part of my happy condition is I tend to be contagious. I am comfortable in my own skin – the world sees me as a happy person. But am I really? Most can relate, few can understand. We need to remind ourselves life isn’t about settling, dwelling and waiting. It’s about making things happen and always maintaining a positive outlook. Let the past be gone, use it to move forward…. use it to make the future better… it’s like a limited edition game…we only have one shot, really!